This is my sexuality and my desires laid bare.
My Sexuality
I have to confess to being sexually inexperienced with people. I have only ever been with one woman (my partner for over ten years) and had a single brief encounter with one man. My woman I love, other men and women turn me on. Women I love, men just make me horny (well, some of them). I have to confess that I am attracted to men in two ways. Firstly if they are good looking and or have a great body. Secondly, if I have got to know them and if we get along. My attraction grows over a period of time and I begin to think of them sexually. I think this is more of an emotional thing - its not very strong and only once did I ever really think about moving on such a person. We were in his room and a bit drunk and I wanted to snog him. Living with the guy and going for it was a bad move - I made my excuses and went to bed. Nothing more ever came of it and I never fancied him that way again. Strange that, must have been the booze.
My first sexual encounter was with my now long term partner. We basically used to have a good drunken grope after we'd been out drinking. Eventually we went all the way and used to have regular sessions on the sofa. Before long we'd leave the lights on and didn't need the drink. As I said, I love my woman. She was much more obliging in those days. She'd finger my arse and suck my cock in an instant. After ten years, two houses and children, she just lies back and takes it. Not very giving or active, but she does not really mind what gets done to her (no holes barred!).
My encounter with a man was a couple of years ago and was over in a few minutes. He was gay and gorgeous and I met him on the internet. He was horny and so was I, so I went round to his house. Risky I know, it was just something I wanted to try. Not really spur of the moment, as I agreed to meet, went and had a shower and then drove to his place. We had a drink downstairs and then went upstairs. We stood facing each other feeling each other up. He took his top off, then his bottoms. What a fab arse! I felt it, then wanked his cock a little and then sucked it. He liked me feeling his cock. He sat me down on the bed and began to feel my cock. I asked him to suck me, but he wouldn't. I was longing for him to play with my arse. Then I came. I stopped it in my foreskin so the cum didn't go everywhere. I said 'where can I put this' and he said 'where would you like to put it'. Then he realised I was not talking about my cock but had cum. He passed me a towel and I cleaned the cum up. Then he squatted in front of me and wanked himself off. Afterwards, he said I could leave and seem genuinely pleased with the experience. I felt used - he promised a slow go session, what he really wanted was to get his rocks off as fast as he could.
She was much more obliging in the early days. She'd finger my arse and suck my cock in an instant. After ten years, two houses and children, she just lies back and takes it. Not very giving or active, but likes straight sex missionary or from behind. She also likes my fingers - rubbing her clitoris and fingering her arse hole makes her cum really quick. If I can get her in this mood and stop myself from cumming, I can usually get my cock inside her arse and she loves it. One of my favourite things is sex in the morning when she is lying facing away from me. I life to snuggle up and snuggle in and slowly make love to her. This usually requires some lube - my saliva usually enough to lube her arse checks until my cock gets to her wet love hole. We both have the same fantasy and that's her getting a strap on and trying it on me. Only problem is, neither of us will pluck up the courage to get one!
Lots of things! Pretty young women in short skirts, women in tight trousers. Real breasts, about a handful, not too big and not like fried eggs! Eyes, big bright eyes and a large smile. A woman's figure can become irrelevant if her face lights up with a smile. Arses. I love arses. This is a bit stereotypical, but the classic pepper pot figure in a classy tight fitting dress with a great arse is fantastic and a real head turner. Lots of little flirting touches turn me on in women which I just can't see in men. Women smell great too - smell is a great turn on for me. Slightly perfumed but not soapy is great. I love the smell of my woman after sex.
A bit tricky to answer this one. My ideal is anyone with boyish looks and smooth. However, I'm a realist and appreciate I'd probably have to pay to get someone like that (although my first encounter was not far off). Anyone not too fat (a little bit of flab isn't a problem), not too hairy and easy going would be fine with me. Arse must be good though - no skinny ones! Age is not a problem provided they are clean and firm - probably under 40. Walking around, few men turn me on. Following a nice arse usually does though. There are not many men whose mannerisms attract me - those that do tend to be younger and more innocent looking. They tend to have the looks too!
What Else Turns Me On (pictures, videos etc) Porn turns me on. I don't really go for the anatomical type and I don't like anything where there are flaccid cocks or people who don't seem to be enjoying it. Crude videos where anyone looks bored or just going through the motions is a no-no. Gay and straight images turn me on, the fairly normal tame kind of stuff. Nothing extreme. Same for videos. I love to watch erotic videos with my partner. Gets us both horny and up for it. Chatting on the internet gets me hot - I will talk about anything to anyone. If I don't like the way the conversation is going, I simply end it politely. I also like the video camera on the internet - I get to watch and perform for other horny guys out there. Chests in particular on video turn me on. I like to finger my ass as guys wank. Performing on camera gets me horny.
Anything not between consenting adults or involving pain. A slapped arse or a nipple tweak is O.K. (and if I'm in that mood I love my nipples squeezed hard). Fat old people are a real no-no. Anyone not clean and anything nasty and smelly.
Things I'd Like To Do with a Man I don't think I have many fantasies with a woman I haven't already tried. So my fantasies are mainly with men. Basically I want to suck, fuck, feel, lick and be sucked, fucked, felt and licked from all conceivable angles. Ideally all without condoms and with lots of wet lube, oil and cum - but then I don't want to die so it must be safe. I think most of my fantasies with men involve being bent over or pushed up against a wall and fucked. I want to be lubed up, opened up and fucked hard against cold white tiles or on my hands and knees. I'd love three other guys, one in my ass, one in my mouth and one sucking me. Mmmmm..... I'd love to straddle a guy, facing him. I'd love to slide my ass over his cock and make him cum as I wank myself. I'd love to suck a guy off, have a guy kneel in front of me and suck me as I lean back in my chair. I'd love to cum and spirt onto his ass and watch it run down his hole. I'd love to lay on my back as a guy opens my legs and slide in and out of me. I'd love a guy to rim my ass, to go 69 and to cum on my chest. I'd love to perform for a guy, to do as he asked. Most of all, I'd like a guy who is slow, attentive, appreciative and able to give and receive and make it last. I've made myself so horny!
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